struggling

"Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."  Matthew 6:33

Friends, pray for me.  I am so struggling right now...

Gonna be honest about where my heart is - I'm praying that prayer up there...but backwards.  I want the "all things added to me" before I am seeking God and his will.  That's an ugly realization.  I think I have gotten so consumed by the adoption, family circumstances, etc...I have been "seeking" God's will on those things and allowed my simple desire for God, and God alone, to get lost in the shuffle.  Now, I certainly don't want you to think I've gone all 'heathen' on you...that's not the case.  Just a good swift kick in my own pants about my priorities.  I want to desire him above everything else. 

My blog friend, Jennifer, wrote the most incredible post about this...I hope you'll head over and be encouraged!! 

Perspective.

Welp, J's gone for two weeks.  The Army calls...and we're gonna miss him!! 

Caleb put it very well yesterday.  He very thoughtfully said, after I asked how he was doing with daddy leaving, "Well...daddy was gone for a whole year before.  Yeah, I can do two more weeks.  I can do two weeks."  He nodded for just a bit more affirmation. 

I think we can do it too, mister...